Those should not be the words that describe me right now but
if I am completely honest…THEY ARE. I know I shouldn’t be worried about things…that
is very specifically said to us in scripture! But…
We are back home in Haiti.
It is HOT. I have new classes this year that I am trying to put
together. School starts next Monday-less
than a week away. We have a new puppy. My house is DIRTY from weeks of neglect.
I am overwhelmed. I am anxious.
Isaiah 40:27-31
“Why would you ever complain, O
Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying, ‘God has lost track of me. He doesn’t care
what happens to me’? Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening? God
doesn’t come and go. God lasts. He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine. He
doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath. And he knows
everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh
strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young fold in
their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles, they run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.”
In all the stress of coming back and getting started, I am
gently reminded moment by moment to lean on my God who loves me. My God who gives me strength to get it ALL
done. My God who has blessed me with an amazing husband. My God who has blessed
me with two precious boys. My God who has unexpectedly blessed us with a new
little puppy who brightens our evenings with laughter and play. My God who
gives me peace-unexplainable. My God is amazing! He is gentle with me. Never
angry or harsh. Gently, he reminds me He is there! Gently, he refocuses my thoughts to where
they should be. WOW!
I am working on not being anxious and overwhelmed this
week. When all of me turns toward those
feelings I am reminded to whisper his name.
What instant peace. Just by saying his name.
Instead of focusing on all the “things” that need to be done
I am going to work on being thankful! I
am thankful that God chooses to use me here in this country, in this city, in
this school, in these students and friends lives. I am thankful that I am challenged with new
things. I am thankful that it isn’t freezing. That one sounds funny to me but
honestly I have to find something to be thankful in each “thing” that seems
like a frustration.
Pray for us this week as we prepare for the new year. The college is growing. We have a lot of new hearts that need to hear
about this amazing God we have! Pray
that we will have our focus on Him so that He can work through us and use us to
reach these people that he loves.
Thankfully, with God's help I can choose to turn anxious and overwhelming thoughts
into thoughts of thankfulness!
