Monday, March 16, 2015
Joyful in all circumstances...How?
I have been sitting here trying to write a blog about what to do with the anger and pain that we experience when something bad happens...I can't!
I am not yet to the place where I can be joyful in this circumstance-my mom's cancer returning! I am not okay with it and I am angry. Yesterday I was reminded by a couple of my friends that it is okay to be angry and to share that with God-being honest with him. So, here it go: I am angry that this is happening AGAIN, I am angry that I am so far away, I am angry that this is happening to the most amazing woman I know...I am angry.
And yet...I TRUST God! I trust what he wants! I trust Him to be in control because He loves her more than I do...which is more than I can imagine because I love her as much as humanly possible! I trust Him to take care of her! I trust Him to heal her (in HIS timing and plan). I HATE that all this is happening more than I can express in words BUT I do TRUST in our amazing God who LOVES us more than we can comprehend.
So, when does the joy come? I honestly don't know yet. I can be thankful that mom was able to catch this in the early stages. I can be thankful that she has a great doctor. I can be thankful that the rest of my family is there for her. But, JOY? Maybe those things I am thankful for - if I can choose to concentrate on them will help bring me the joy that James says I should have. Maybe if I continue to focus on the Strength that Jesus gives us in our weakness I could have that joy that shows up no matter what.
I am still learning how to be joyful in all circumstances...THAT isn't an easy one! I will just try, moment by moment, to lean on God's strength. I will try, moment by moment, to remember that His way is perfect. I will try, moment by moment, to remember that He loves us enough to give his son's life for us. I will try, moment by moment, to remember that our God is GOOD!
Psalm 30:5 says that our weeping my last through the night but joy comes in the morning. I am not sure how long that "night" lasts but I am sure looking forward to the morning!
I am not yet to the place where I can be joyful in this circumstance-my mom's cancer returning! I am not okay with it and I am angry. Yesterday I was reminded by a couple of my friends that it is okay to be angry and to share that with God-being honest with him. So, here it go: I am angry that this is happening AGAIN, I am angry that I am so far away, I am angry that this is happening to the most amazing woman I know...I am angry.
And yet...I TRUST God! I trust what he wants! I trust Him to be in control because He loves her more than I do...which is more than I can imagine because I love her as much as humanly possible! I trust Him to take care of her! I trust Him to heal her (in HIS timing and plan). I HATE that all this is happening more than I can express in words BUT I do TRUST in our amazing God who LOVES us more than we can comprehend.
So, when does the joy come? I honestly don't know yet. I can be thankful that mom was able to catch this in the early stages. I can be thankful that she has a great doctor. I can be thankful that the rest of my family is there for her. But, JOY? Maybe those things I am thankful for - if I can choose to concentrate on them will help bring me the joy that James says I should have. Maybe if I continue to focus on the Strength that Jesus gives us in our weakness I could have that joy that shows up no matter what.
I am still learning how to be joyful in all circumstances...THAT isn't an easy one! I will just try, moment by moment, to lean on God's strength. I will try, moment by moment, to remember that His way is perfect. I will try, moment by moment, to remember that He loves us enough to give his son's life for us. I will try, moment by moment, to remember that our God is GOOD!
Psalm 30:5 says that our weeping my last through the night but joy comes in the morning. I am not sure how long that "night" lasts but I am sure looking forward to the morning!
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